NA SI WA WU JI BA BANNNNN~~~

seriously, how i wish i got ji ba ban now. everything is money. no money no talk. i cant buy the things i want, live the way i want, let alone settling 3 meals outside by myself. 4d toto so hard to strike, then for what in this world we have lottery? i dont wish much. right now, just let me strike 1k will do. i'll be more than glad. hais.. sometimes i don understand, whether my parents understands me. dad is not doing anything, so just forget it. my mom, okay i understand she got 3 of us to feed, plus herself. i know it aint easy. but when i say i want to go get a job, let me work and earn money so i wont be taking money from you so much, you say don work, need money tell me, i give you. but when i need money and take from you, you scold me. like wth? asking all sorts of qsns like why i spend so fast, spend so much blah blah. please, its just freaking 20bucks. how long can that freaking 20bucks last me? at the most 2 days. fine, then i don eat. i get gastric pains, who cares right? ahhhhh.. sick of living. i wished i was born in a rich family. i wish i have a job right now, like so despo. just give me a job. ahhh fuck it.